i let her cry

So Miss K has had an eventful past few days and it seems as if every time she goes down for a nap we end up having to go somewhere, or she's fallin' asleep on either me or Mr. Awesome and just putting her down wakes her up or she gets a little spook and those flailing arms wake her. There's also the fact that she's worried she might miss something so she literally fights taking a nap. I know for a fact that she has not gotten enough sleep these last few days because her normal amicable moods have been very short-lived. So what's a momma to do?

Well there are people who live on both sides of the "just let them cry" debate. I myself believe that initially with a newborn there is nothing wrong with you responding to every little sniffle or cry...they just don't understand yet that they have you wrapped around their little finger. However, at what point do they get it? These past few days I have felt like I've hindered more than helped Miss K in getting some much needed Zzz's so when her 10 o'clock nap rolled around and the usual methods did nothing to get her to sleep but instead increased her level of fussiness and eye rubbing; I knew what I had to do. One more quick once over...

1.) check her diaper...it was clear
2.) give her a little boob action...not interested
3.) shush and walk...are you kidding me
4.) check her temp...no really, what if she was sick and I was just missing something...but nothin'

so I laid her down, covered her up and let her cry. Now, mind you, I couldn't just leave the room. I just couldn't. So she cried. She cried so loud my ears started to ring and for those twenty minutes I questioned whether I was the worst mom in the land. I certainly looked the part, but that's a whole other issue. For a solid 22 minutes she cried and I wanted to cry and then suddenly it was just silent. like someone had just come in and pressed STOP on the screaming baby track. Maybe I haven't scarred my child. Maybe this was the right thing to do...the fact that I knocked over a clock on my way out of the room without so much as a twitch from my little one makes me think...maybe I'm kind of awesome and maybe this won't be the first time I'll have to do what's right for her and we both aren't going to like it.

oh how i love thee...

fill in the blank friday

from lauren at the little things we do

1.   My Halloween plans this year will include       going to my sister-in-laws "Harvest" party to see the kiddos all dressed up and then heading home to watch Hocus Pocus with Mr. Awesome while eating grilled cheese sandwiches, tomato soup and maybe an apple crisp. Plus we have a crap load of candy so hopefully we get some trick-or-treaters.

2.  My most memorable Halloween costume was   I was a boy scout my sophomore year in college, unfortunately there are still pictures floating around.

3.  For Halloween this year I'm going to be     a tired new momma, complete with drool stains.

4.  I've always wanted to dress up as   Beyonce...I'm serious!! I would randomly sing out parts of Bootylicious and dance all hard, like I'm trying to break something. She's hot.

5.  Halloween free association!      it's the great pumpkin charlie brown, dracula, pumpkin patch.

6.  The worst thing about Halloween is       cheap/crappy candy and that it's not half of the holiday it used to be.

7.  The best thing about Halloween is      little kids in costume, the crisp air, the fact that there's really no clean-up.

it's the great pumpkin charlie brown

as if you would need any other reason to love Halloween!!

so we walk...

Normally Miss K is a doll and her and I stick to somewhat of a schedule. On the rare occasion that she is unconsolable, doesn't want to take a nap, is under or overstimulated or we just need to get out of the house...we walk. Now I've never been the type to say, "hey let's take a walk." I've assured myself that I can't walk fast enough to convince myself I'm actually going somewhere and therefore I would much rather go for a run or maybe just hop in the car, you know, cover some distance. But Miss K likes to walk so we bundle ourselves up, strap into the baby carrier or stroller, grab Mayapolis and head out for a stroll. 

She loves it!! Her eyes get big and she turns her head from left to right and up and down just taking it all in. I can't help but pause at all the things that, if it weren't for Miss K, I would walk right by. I'm beginning to realize that the opportunity to just "take a walk" with no motive other than spending time with my daughter is actually quite a luxury:)

So now that the weather has taken a turn I feel that Miss K and I may need appropriate attire...

Maybe a little something for Miss Mayapolis Papaya as well...

Here's to rainy day walks with the one's you love!

Kimiko

under construction:)

I'm revamping the blog and Miss K is refusing naps...we will try to resume our regular program shortly:)

already week eight!!

So "fill in the blank friday" started me thinking about these last couple years and all the big things that have changed (i.e. being blessed with a husband, a dog, and a baby) and how just my normal day-to-day is so incredibly different...here are some of the things and scenarios that come to mind:

1. Let's say there's no food in the house:

Single Me: go out to sushi, or have a Whole Foods deli extravaganza, call and ask mom if she's cooked and if not will she make pork chops

Married Me: defer to Mr. Awesome who asks, "is there rice and Kimchi?" because if there is then there is always food in the house (breakfast, lunch, or dinner)

Momma Me: at least Miss K has food, ask Mr. Awesome if he wants to split a burrito

*going to the grocery is the last thing that crosses my mind being that it requires the most amount of effort

2. My favorite way to kill time, bumming around the bookstore

Single Me: used to go to the bookstore several times a week and would purchase a magazine, a book, and a tea all in one visit!!

Married Me: defers to Mr. Awesome who says (when he's willing to go with me) "I'll be at       the comics." When I come to find him, tea in hand, he asks "don't we have tea at home?"

Momma Me: while driving by I contemplate going into the bookstore but Miss K is taking a much needed nap, maybe I'll get some tea at the drive-thru and take a spin around the park.

3. Taking naps

Single Me: all the time

Married Me: all the time tangled up with Mr. Awesome

Momma Me: all the time with Miss K during the week and usually one luxurious one with my whole little fam on the weekend.

There are quite a few more little changes, the big ones require little explanation, but Miss K is looking super kissable at the moment so I'm off.

later

kimiko